He almost said it out loud but stopped, not wanting to seem to be esoterically alluding to the second-to-second stealthily fortified self-torture he endured due to the ambiguity of their now almost nonexistent and maybe always imaginary friendship.
He refrained from that type of possibly interpretable or misinterpretable deadpan nonsensically humorous charm;
too bad and too bad too because that was how he liked to talk and that was how she always talked.
